2011

2009, for me, was all about moving on with my life. 2010 was about living it. I went out and did things that I would have not have otherwise done in the state that I was in just two years ago. Depression can really take control of a person's life, and in these past two year I haven't let it take full control of mine like it had done in the past. I got out more and experienced things that I would have not experienced before. I went ice skating for the first time last week. While I did not enjoy this activity for fear of slipping and hitting my head on ice, I am still glad that I experienced it. I faced a very real phobia of mine by at least attempting to skate.

While 2010 did bring it's share of downs, including a stint of financial issues and worry and a devastating break up, I refused to let those issues keep me down for long. I have spent too much of my past feeling sorry for myself. I picked myself up and moved on. My life is mine, not depression's.

For 2011, I hope to continue to live my life and to become more and more dependent on myself. I have relied on others for help over the course of these past two years and I am extremely grateful because I would not have been able to get my life started on my own. However, issues have cropped up that have lead me to see that I can't continue to rely on others for long. While going to school full time prevents me from doing much more than a part time job (which means that I still have to rely on roommates to help with rent), I will be looking for better opportunities and putting my newly acquired degree to good use.

I wish everyone a happy 2011, and hope that everyone is blessed with opportunities to grow and to live their life to it's fullest.